fights

Not every fights are worth fighting. You will lose at the battle ground without knowing that you can get up again to believe in yourself after that. Know yourself to know your boundaries about everything. Don't trap yourself in it forever. Second opinion won't matter afterall. Plan if you need to, wisely.

This was just losing.

Perceived

Mind yourself to mind your words with everyone around you, carefully. Talk when you need to and make sure you got your points right away. Stay true to your topic with your confidence in it.  People will perceive you in the way they want and that is never going to change at all. Live you your life well because you know yourself more than anyone.

Apa?

Ya, kau.
Apa yang kau cuba lakukan?
Mencipta harapan
Membina kenangan
Yang akhirnya kau musnahkan.

Nothing

I feel nothing. It's like having yourself crushed in your own car and left out on the road. No one was really there for you at that time.

Decisions

The word decision itself gave massive impact to us. We tend to know well the consequences will be based on what actions we take later on. Decisions also will lead to all the impossible outcome that might come later, either bad or good but slowly it will drink you until you feel exhausted like stranded in a faraway desert. Some of us have a way to deal with it right away but eventually not everyone is capable of doing it. For once, make a good decisions about that one thing in your list today. 

Bergelap

Ya, malam tadi mengambil peluang menonton Ada Apa Dengan Cinta 2 yang menjadi kegilaan ramai dan satu setengah jam kemudian bergelap. Agak cemas juga kerana mengingatkan adakah silapnya dari saya yang sedang menonton AADC2 ketika itu. Hampir satu Kajang atau Bangi pun turut bergelap sama rasanya malam tadi. Dengarnya pencawang elektrik berdekatan Sungai Chua ada masalah, harapnya tiada apa yang buruk jadi lah.

Mengenai tadi AADC2 yang tidak sempat habis tonton pula, saya seolah mengharapkan sesuatu yang lain dari movie ini. Ceritanya bergerak perlahan untuk setiap plot yang ada mungkin semua nak diterangkan dan banyak sangat ruang atau cara sinematografinya yang nak ditunjukkan. Jelasnya, hidup ini adalah satu pengharapan. Tidak kisahlah apa situasi pun kerana harapan dan kenangan itu membuatkan seseorang itu hidup walaupun masa depan yang dilalui itu belum pasti bagaimana. Dan persahabatan yang kukuh serta ikatan kekeluargaan yang erat pula membuatkan seseorang dapat berdiri teguh untuk masa yang akan datang.

Berkemungkinan akan sambung tonton semula untuk langkah seterusnya yang akan diambil oleh mereka.

Happy

‘No one should ever ask themselves that: why am I unhappy? The question carries within it the virus that will destroy everything. If we ask that question, it means we want to find out what makes us happy. If what makes us happy is different from what we have now, then we must either change once and for all, or stay as we are, feeling even more unhappy.’

The Zahir, Paulo Coelho



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I found this quote again somewhere. The memories of having that book and read it for the first time will lingers in my mind forever. There are many favorite words/quotes to be remember and i think i did highlight it at some point. I guess it's time to read every books at home again eh?

The struggling in a dream

Last night was merely a nightmare for me. I can't surely stop thinking of about it, i am feeling stressed somehow remembering that dream. A dream where you are a person that everyone else around you want you to be. That is just the first stage i guess where i am packing up my things hastily to an unknown place while my family was very happy i guess as they are asking me to be hurry and i might be late for it. Too bad i woke up to find that it's just a dream and i can't sleep much after that due to overthinking of course.

Plus i think it's because i want to my find my way so much and yet it require more than anything, to sacrifice everything that you want to make your family happy.